Monday, 11 July 2016

Sadness is a Blessing

I just wanted to tell you that you are really nice to me n I love it
I love having you around and the way you make me feel, the way you treat me and also the way you feel about me.
I love it when you care about me and feels jealous with other men for me n all protective when I even hurt myself by mistake.
I love it when you do everything a girl could possibly ask from a boyfriend.
You are a kind of man I would have loved to have as my first boyfriend
You are everything I ever wanted when I realised what is love for the first time and may be if I would have met you then I wound not have changed into the hard n rude person I am today
May be the innocence and love in me would not have gone away may be the paranoia I live in now would have never happened to me in first place if you had been there because you give me everything I ever wished in my life from a boyfriend
You are someone with whom I would have fallen in love in an instance if I would have met you few years before
But the problem is that I don’t know about now
I still want my forever and my happy ending but just don’t believe it exists for me
I have been broken n got back to myself again n again but this time I just don’t feel like recollecting the pieces
It feels good to be in this despair and hide out not to be seen by anyone
It feels safe to not let anyone in
And I don’t know if would ever come out of it or even if I would ever want to come out of it
But you surely are the person I would have fallen in love with and stayed that way forever if I ever had a forever for myself